Sunday, March 2, 2014

Forever a Newbie



I’m embarrassed to admit, my blog’s anniversary date had completely slipped my mind. To add more lapses to my memory, I was convinced that I’d completed just three years of blogging. This was till I saw the chronology of my blog-posts and discovered that A-Musing is now 4 years old. Don’t blame me. To me, it still feels like yesterday, when I started writing to amuse strangers, many of whom became friends with passage of time. 

As someone who invests a chunk of her time on her blog and earns only a mixed basket of brickbats and accolades and no money for her efforts, it’s difficult having to explain what I do to people I meet for the first time. If I say I blog, they want to know what I do besides blogging. It becomes awkward having to explain that reading, stressing about what to write next, waiting for inspiration to strike and then writing and rewriting to get the confluence of thoughts and words right, keeps me busy for hours. To add to my misery, most of my real life friends have no interest in my blog and my little achievements, so I make sure I don’t utter a single word about it and make them uncomfortable. Sometimes I feel I lead a double life – my online life spectacularly different from my offline existence.  

My Mom gets very upset that she can’t brag about me to her friends because they have no idea what a blog is. For that matter, neither did I till I started blogging in 2010.

Neither can I introduce myself as a writer to the uninitiated especially after being privy to comments like, bloggers are not writers/ blogging is simply graffiti with punctuation. For most, you are not a writer till your book gets published. Since I write mostly for online sites like IBN Live, Times of India’s NRI Section and Unreal Times, on and off, I prefer describing myself as someone who works for love.

Most don’t get it. So be it.

So, when I won the BlogAddaward for the best Humour and Satire Blog, I preferred sharing my elation with my online friends. I felt only they could understand how great it feels to get a formal recognition for something that started off as a hobby and became a passion. 

A tentative foray into a world I had no idea about, expecting no one to read what I had to say. In fact, when I got the first comment on my blog-post, I was tempted to run up to the noble soul and crumple at his feet with gratitude. 

I feel doubly privileged to have won the Indiblogger and Blogadda awards but the thought that whatever I write now might prompt someone to think, don't tell me SHE won the best humour and satire blog award for this shit, terrifies me. 


I know I am not the best but it is very easy to believe the ‘awesome, sheer brilliance, you are too funny’ comments on your blog. But a part of you knows that many of them are just being kind. That’s why the odd criticism rankles you for weeks and makes you doubt your ability as a writer of calibre. Thankfully, I’m blessed with a family that keeps me grounded with their cringe-worthy opinions of my “masterpieces”, tch tching at my misplaced commas that make my carefully constructed sentences seem like a life sentence.

So, to stop myself from feeling overwhelmed at the rising expectations from me, I will continue to think of myself as not a veteran but the eager newcomer I was four years back. Funnily, I was regarded as a veteran even as a newcomer. When Blogadda announced my blog as a notable newbie, it was received amidst chortles of amusement from my readers.  In 2010, when the now defunct “Blogjunta” announced its first ever Blogging awards, which I won later, the organizers had to deal with complaints of a veteran like me being nominated in the humour category. 

Accepting myself as a veteran will be akin to committing harakiri, admitting that I am way past my best. I’d like to think that my best is yet to come. I will continue to think of you as a restive audience whose attention I have to grab by being as interesting as possible. My heart pumping wildly as I hit the publish button, wondering about the kind of reaction my new post will elicit. Never being afraid of committing mistakes or admitting to them. And feeling as grateful as I did those many years back when one of you is kind enough to leave an acknowledgement.


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97 comments:

  1. If people cannot enjoy a well written blog post, feel pity for them Purba. There are people who love to read blog posts such as yours.
    :-)
    hugs.

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    1. No one has suggested that. It's just me articulating one of my fears :-)

      Hugs back :-)

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  2. Purba! I am in the same club of people blogging for money and with real life friends AND family saying indulgently, "Poor guy! If it keeps him happy, let him do it". AND I do not even have the joy of having the online world acknowledging me as decent at what I do, except for kindly souls like you. I can quite understand how it feels to have a sort of Chinese wall between the offline and online worlds.

    AND, may I assure you, I am certainly not being only kind when I go gaga over your posts. :) It is tough to write anything - most especially humor - over a period of 4 years and remaining fresh to your readers. To manage that is no mean achievement.

    Did I forget to say - Happy Blogoversary! :)

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    1. *'not blogging for money' and not 'blogging for money' :)

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    2. //Poor guy! If it keeps him happy, let him do it// hahahaha :D I could so relate to that

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    3. Suresh, believe me it's a struggle at times. It doesn't help that I'm always plagued by the fear that I may be past my best.

      Precisely why I hold on to encouragement from friends like you, like a leech :-)

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  3. You have come a long way, keep going!

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  4. Well congratulations on completing 4 years.
    But I always feel that enjoying what you do should be the reward, not followers or blogger trophies. You are striving to better your own expectations as a writer....I know you are because it shows in your writing. And no need to explain anything thing to anyone, as long as you are happy doing what you are doing. :)

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    1. Indeed, Sri Sri Prateek Jee :D

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  5. Purba, yours is one of the few blogs that I open up randomly on late nights and then read 4-5 posts in one go! I love your blog. Doesn't matter if its 4 or 3 yrs old, it always amuses me and makes me smile each time I read it and this makes it fresh. And I truly feel a blog is for readers and the connection the writer feels with its readers. Yours does a good job there. No money can match that! :)

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    1. You have no idea how happy it made me to know that you unwind with my posts with a smile on your face :-)

      Thank you for reading.

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  6. Congrats on the completion of 4 years. Maybe they think you as veteran with the ease and flair with which you write. After 3 years of blogging, I can say that I have come a long way. Guess you hit the nail on the head with your first post...the awards are a testimony to that. Koi shaq?

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    1. I have my phases, the ups and downs but the thing that has remained a constant is my love for doing what I do with passion.

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  7. I second Suresh--humor ever so fresh.No one can accuse you of writing shit.
    Even my coterie of friends is far removed from this genre or any genre,for that matter.I survive on the benevolence of kind souls like you and others.
    And congrats on the award.

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    1. Indu, there's so much to learn from your posts. Your friends have no idea what they are missing.

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  8. "when I got the first comment on my blog-post, I was tempted to run up to the noble soul and crumple at his feet with gratitude."

    That's the exact feeling for the very first comment on each of the new posts. :-)

    Happy fourth blog anniversary! :-)

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  9. Well who cares what the whole world and their uncle, aunt or cousin who drives cab in big Apple says....Your readers will keep on coming back till you keep on going for the funny bone and Jugular simultaneously.....

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    1. I know I sound cliched when I say that I feel blessed to have blogger friends like you.

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  10. Imagine, I was asked by a blogger - So what do you do besides blogging?
    You are so right when you say we bloggers lead twin lives.
    Congratulations on sweeping both Indiblogger and Blogadda. No one comes within kissing distance. And I am not saying cause I am your friend. You are gifted, talented and hardworking. You deserve every bit of it.

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    1. As always, you are kind, encouraging and soothing. And you are one of the few bloggers whose posts I never miss reading.

      You were always good and you are getting even better (as if that was possible)!

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  11. Purba.....if you write a book, you ought to become more famous than most Indian authors who (not all but some), are over hyped. You should seriously think on those lines.....And something humorous.....and I shall tell you why.....you have those humoroglobins running in your blood stream (I know there is no word like that, but still!!), that your posts, no matter which topics they cater to, always manage to bring a smile on one's face :)

    And I would say.....you are not just a blogger but one great writer.....perhaps, you can start a book series (like the shopaholic series)....

    just some fodder for thought?? ;)

    What say??

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    1. Narayani, I am no story teller. Fiction is not exactly my forte. And the thought of having to promote my own book isn't encouraging either :-)

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  12. Yes, this is a small world of blogging. I guess it applies to most other lesser known fields. When people don't know something, we can excuse their ignorance. Congrats on the award! Yes, it is terribly difficult to do humor and satire so well for so long. Kudos! May you reach many more such milestones. The fact that you are not obsessed with your success is very appealing to me. You are someone who can take an accolade and the brickbat in the same vein. That, in my opinion, is key to growth. A pleasure reading you always.

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    1. What is hard-earned cannot be taken for granted. You know it as well as I do, Rachna :-)

      And I have immense regard for you and your blog.

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  13. Congrats Purba! Keep up the spirit!

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  14. I felt like yesterday that I read your last anniversary post. And what makes you think you don't write the best? I am not being any kind or trying to impress here. Always loved your satire. :) And awards or rewards, you deserve them. Btw, not many of my family or friends read my blog. It is online friends :)

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    1. Whether our friends and family want to read our blog is entirely their choice but it does make you happy to share with them what makes you happy :/

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  15. Don't know how you keep churning out those one liners, witticisms, puns and the odd sarcasm, Purba. Glad you keep them coming, though.

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    1. I'm glad you spare time for my nonsense :D

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  16. Congrats again Purba .

    As part of Write Tribes Festival of Words, We had to write a post mentioning blogs that we like. Yours is definitely one that always gives me a good laugh and I am happy to mention yours as one of those that I enjoy reading.

    http://jaishwrites.blogspot.sg/2014/03/write-tribe-festival-day-2-blogs-that-i.html

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    1. Thank you, Jaish, I feel honoured :-)

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  17. I have been reading your work for the last 6-8 months or so and if there is anything I can vouch for it is the effortless humour that you bring to the table. I think as writers/bloggers there are genre's that we all are comfortable with. Yours shows beautifully with wit and humour. If anybody deserved those awards it was you. :)

    Btw as far as "don't tell me SHE won the best humour and satire blog award for this shit, terrifies me. " goes, I think the reaction would be more on the lines of "No wonder she won the awards, damn I wish I could write humour like she does".

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    1. LOL...there's a lot of effort behind that effortless humour. Sometimes it works, sometimes it falls flat.

      And what a lovely thing to say, Seeta, even though I half believe you :D

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  18. Happy Blog Anniversary! :-)
    And it is great that you work for love, a concept that may be alien to many

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    1. It's a personal choice we make.

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  19. darling..its always a double edged sword for bloggers, my real life friends think im so 'Privileged' to go for food reviews and travels..they do not think that for past 10 years, this is what i have been doing anyways with my own hard earned money and that's what i love to do...its just that I happen to write about it and random people love reading about it!!!

    congrats on completing 4 years....you definitely tickle my funny bone with your writing and looking forward to read you more :)

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    1. But in a way it's good not get any "bhav" from your friends. It keeps you grounded.

      Thank you for your wishes, Sush :-)

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  20. Purba, the first time I read your blog, I fell for it hook line and sinker and have been an avid reader since! I am still toddling around while you have raised the bar by conquering heights as rightly highlighted! May you continue to entertain the blog world and fulfill all your writing aspirations:)

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    1. You have been most encouraging, Rahul. Thank you for everything :-)

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  21. And then there is that part - if some family members know about the blog, whenever they crack some impromptu joke they end it with 'now dont write this on your blog' ... as if I find inspiration to write from these unfunny banters ! Anyway happy blog anniversary Purba..! Your blog has got certain quality which is very very rare to find in blogdom. I am completing five years of blogging and starting my sixth year this month. But the number of years does not equate to quality. Like a person who could be ten years older than me need not be mature than I am ;-)

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    1. Oh yes! I get it all the time. It's SO annoying. As if my blog is some kind of a gossip journal.

      And hey, you write funny! I love reading your posts.

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  22. first of all- a very happy birthday to your blog :) and I really could connect with your thought because I too have been forgetting my blog anniversary from the past two years and then when I remember it, its already too late!
    also I completely agree that its so difficult to explain what exactly blogging means to a blogger because people usually perceive it as nothing more than a futile scribbling. So i too live a completely different online and offline life most of the time because being a medical student, I can find no one who is remotely interested in writing. So I don't even care to share my posts with them.
    but you have a great blog there..keep going maam :))

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    1. Thankfully, we have a beautiful online community of friends and readers who keep us energized with their feedback :-)

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  23. I have been reading your blogs for so long... you definitely deserve all the award you have received. And seriously 4 years!!! I thought it would be 6-7 years!! you surely have made a mark for yourself in that time. Congratulations :) As for the family that keep you grounded, I have a husband who had hardly ever stepped into my blog space and let's me blog because otherwise I would become bat crap crazy :P

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    1. On that count I consider myself very lucky. I have a partner who's as helpful as he's encouraging.

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  24. My best wishes on completing four years of successful blogging.
    You should be proud of the content you have shared with novices like me.
    And yes,my colleagues ask me " What's the use blogging for free"

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    1. Self-satisfaction has no price. You should tell them that.

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  25. congrats for coming this long, i just came across your blog and loving it to the core!!!

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    1. Oh, thank you for dropping by :-)

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  26. Congrats Purba, how could you not win this award! :D

    Happy belated 4th birthday to your blog! Thank you for amusing us for 4 years now.

    Here's to 40 more years! :)

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  27. This post is so relatable Purba. XOXO

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  28. Purba, email subscription link of your blog isn't working..I'm getting a message that it isn't enabled. Is there any other way I could subscribe to your writings?!

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    1. I had no idea the e mail subscription wasn't working till you informed me.I think I have rectified it. Will you check and let me know?

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  29. We both started around the same time and look where you have reached! If it is not talent and a gift for writing, what is? The blog world loves you and I am one of your eternal admirers :) Here's wishing you with a big hug, many more milestones and achievements.

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    1. So have you, M. You are an inspiration for all of us.

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  30. Congrats to you for all your worthy achievements! Belated Happy Blog Anniversary wishes!
    Even I consider myself to be a newbie... am yet to get the recognition from BlogAdda though! :)
    Best wishes for many more milestones!

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  31. I can so relate to your 2nd paragraph.. My offline friends don't even have a teeny-weeny interest about blogging! How I detest it :D
    And about your winning, how can you not win when you're making thousands of us laugh n start our day on a cheerful note! Cheers to you! :)

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    1. And it makes me immensely happy to know that my posts have made many of you smile.

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  32. When in self doubt, stare the cabinet full of trophies , gifts and vouchers! If that doesn't help, go into the attic, open that big, rusty and dusty "trunk" and look for some more...that should help.

    - a "senior" blogger :D :D

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    1. Geez! Prateek. The day that happens I should search for the nearest pothole and drown myself.

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  33. This made me smile ear to ear.
    Did I ever tell you, you have been an inspiration?
    And everyone blogs for just the love of it. To tell you, I don't even know why I am anonymous. I am sure my real life people won't even care whether I blog. GAH! But ek bar commitment kar di toh kar di :(

    And you very well deserved those awards!

    I completed 3 yrs of blogging this feb!

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    1. Darling, you have a phenomenal following. Too bad that your family is not aware of this talent of yours.

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  34. Lovely post, enchanting blog.. Keep going Purba!!

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  35. Congrats on completion of 4 years, Purba. You are indeed the best in business. I discovered your blog in your first year of blogging and was so surprised that someone in the first year, blogging like a veteran while I still seemed a noob after 3 years. (I probably still do even after 6 years).

    I could fully relative to real world friends and relatives not understanding what blogging is all about. Guess this is a different secret world for bloggers.

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    1. Isn't it wonderful to know that so many of us share the same gripe :D

      Thank god for the "secret sorority of bloggers" .

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  36. Graffiti with punctuation? You scare me, Purba. But allow me to congratulate you and wish you many more glories in the days to come.

    As for those feelings, well, only the wearers know where those shoes pinch.

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    1. Yours is far from that, Uma. Your mastery over the language is commendable.

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  37. Dont bother others Purba, the blogger community loves you. I have the same tragedy in life, my parents, my best friends, my brother, my relatives have no clue about what blogging is and what the hell I write all the time :P. But thats what keeps you grounded and helps you in switch from virtual to real world quickly. so keep making mistakes and keep loving the brickbats and accolades

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    1. That hurts, doesn't it? When the ones you love the most show no interest in what you makes you happy.

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  38. Happy blog Anniversary Purba :) It is a sign of growing old when you forget your anniversary...and congratulations on blogadda award.

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    1. Hahahaha...I'm certainly not getting any younger.

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  39. U deserve it ! and there is no need to cringe. If you are told that blogging is graffiti with punctuation then may be mine are the scrawny lines drawn by a kid on paper!
    I LOVE YOUR WRITE UPS and U r the one for whom I genuinely felt happy when U won - No am not being kind with my comments :)
    Keep them coming. Wish u success always and ya comments/ brickbats scare me too. I would love to be a forever newbie as well
    Good lck

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    1. And I am blessed to have friends like you, Afshan :-)

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  40. Congratulations Purba. Besides your impeccable writing style and your sparkling wit, I htink one reason why I love your blog is because I can see how much you love writing !
    Bas aap yun hi likhti rahiye !

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  41. Keep working for love! That's the best kind of work :) And happy 4th blog anniversary.

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    1. So far I have managed to stay true to what I believe in :-)

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  42. I love reading your blog and I am studying your blog as part of my research on language of blogs

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    1. That's such an interesting subject for research!

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  43. Hearty congrats! A wonderfully great blog indeed! I love reading your posts!

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  44. How true it is when you say that one's real friends still make nothing of one's blogging 'success' or whatever it is called these days without making it sound pompous and silly!

    Anyway, what do they know?

    Congrats for all the love and accolades that have come your way recently and over the four years you have devoted to your passion. And my best wishes for many more!

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    1. Ha! It's good to be treated like yesterday's Roti. Does wonders to your self-esteem :D

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  45. Yesterday I tried to become your 1000th follower but google didn't permit me (some technical problem), I read through several of your posts and am completely overwhelmed with your flow of words that come so naturally making lot of sense. Congrats on your accolades and way to go Purba, now when I type Pu for pupilpod on my search box it automatically shows purba ray.com

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    1. I wish I could crawl into the woodwork and never come out *Blush*

      Words fail me when I get appreciation like this. Thank you for reading :-)

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  46. Love your post! How relevant to me is it. I haven't told a single soul I know personally about my blog. I can guess what their reaction will be. Why blog? What do you get? I do have another job though which is a so called proper job. :)
    But I cannot tell you the immense satisfaction I get blogging and that first comment. Hey you hit the nail there :). Seriously I was so happy that day.
    Love your blog. - Preethi

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    1. I guess, we all have a similar story to tell. And like you said, the immense satisfaction get from blogging. Which is why it's a passion for most of us.

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  47. I didn't think you go through so much for writing all that cool satire in here..Double congrats to you!! First for the blogadda win and then for the four years of 'unpaid' blogging :) Anyways, your chance encounter with blogging and awards everywhere only point that - you can now start thinking of writing a book (satirical piece of course!) and make it big in the literary world.

    Nobody in my real life social circle reads my blog...for them it is a piece of pure time waste...they ask me 'why do u blog? Why don't u do something that can make you money?" My sister and nieces do read though and look at me as a 'published writer' which makes me feel happy and fuels my drive to blog more!

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    1. I discovered so much about myself through blogging - both pleasant and unpleasant. It's tough having to explain why we invest so much of our time on something that does not pay?
      But a little appreciation goes a long way :-)

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